Emily Maynard may be a reality television sweetheart, but it wasn’t always easy for her to stay positive. Fans of The Bachelor may be familiar with some of her struggles, but she has stayed silent on some of the issues she had prior to going on a reality show. In her new book, I Said Yes, Maynard is completely honest about her struggles with prescription drugs, depression and a suicide attempt. According to a new report, Emily Maynard says she doesn’t have that perfect life that everyone thinks.
“Things haven’t been super easy for me,” Maynard, author of the new book, I Said Yes, tells PEOPLE magazine this week. “As great as things are now, it’s been a struggle for me. My life definitely isn’t perfect. Is anybody’s?”
Of course, Emily’s journey to find love as been featured twice on the show, but her life prior to the reality TV fame wasn’t perfect. Emily lost her boyfriend in a sudden plane crash, but there was a positive light that came out of that – she was pregnant with her daughter, Ricky. After trying to find love, she went on The Bachelor and later The Bachelorette. She didn’t find love, but ended up marrying a friend from church and having another child.
In the book, Maynard also opens up about her childhood, including a stint at a boarding school. She admits that it was really tough on her and she was hospitalized twice in six months – once after she threatened suicide and once after she overdosed on prescription pain pills.
“It really was a cry for help,” says Maynard, 30. “I never really wanted to end things. I just wanted attention. It makes me sad to think about. I was so focused on the part of my heart that was empty that I couldn’t see beyond where I was.”
Emily Maynard’s new book sounds like an excellent read. Are you going to pick up a copy?